"Glad that you can forgive, only hoping that as time goes you can forget"

I regret how it ended with you.

I know we weren't really anything official.

I know that it wasn't going to last.

I know that I never really loved you.

But...

You wanted it to be official.

You wanted it to last.

You loved me.

And I left you behind in my dust when I left.

I found someone new.

And now I love him.

I just wish that I had more tact.

You deserved a phone call.

I was moving on so rapidly that you didn't fit in my new life.

You had changed,

It was like I didn't know you anymore.

And there was the distance.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy where I am now.

I would never go back to you.

But I miss you.

We started this as friends.

Then we spiraled into lust, and it all changed.

I miss how unapologetically badass you were.

You stood your ground, even to the point of violence.

You protected and loved with ferocity.

I want that in my life.

But not in the way that I had it.

I still think of you

Your cigarette kisses,

Your rough hands,

Your brash actions.

You've changed me.

But I don't want it back.

I miss you, but I don't want you.

I love him.

But I'm sorry.

And every time I think back upon our summer,

I'll be sorry.

I regret how it ended with you.