Almost everything I do is in the search for your attention. I hope you know how pathetic that makes me feel. You're independent and completely fine with that and here I am searching for your approval. Sorry if that makes me pathetic.

Why is it that I can't accept that maybe it goes the same way.

Maybe I'm just afraid that someone will love me almost as much as I love them.

Maybe I'm just afraid that I'll get rejected and laughed at.

Is it sad that the second option seems more feasible?